Occasional Life Model

Art can never exist without naked beauty displayed.
Friday saw the final sitting, at least for a very long while, as the advent of a new job means international travel and no weekdays off. It was bittersweet in a way and gave me plenty of time to reflect on why I even started life modelling in the first place. In fact James, the artist whose studio I work in actually asked what spurred me to do it, something he’d never broached before in the entire six months. Our relationship and ability to talk about anything and everrything be it art based or not actually allowed me to realise the truth behind it. Not that it was a secret in my mind. More a deluded expression that other people seeing me naked might make me feel better about my life after the pain and sadness of broken heart. I guess it did in a way. It wasn’t difficult. It gave me some spare cash to play with. It introduced to seventeen incredible artists. It allowed me to induldge in a self reflective/obsessive blog. What will happen next? Who knows. Definately was a great talking point while it lasted.

Friday saw the final sitting, at least for a very long while, as the advent of a new job means international travel and no weekdays off.

It was bittersweet in a way and gave me plenty of time to reflect on why I even started life modelling in the first place.

In fact James, the artist whose studio I work in actually asked what spurred me to do it, something he’d never broached before in the entire six months.

Our relationship and ability to talk about anything and everrything be it art based or not actually allowed me to realise the truth behind it. Not that it was a secret in my mind. More a deluded expression that other people seeing me naked might make me feel better about my life after the pain and sadness of broken heart.

I guess it did in a way. It wasn’t difficult. It gave me some spare cash to play with. It introduced to seventeen incredible artists. It allowed me to induldge in a self reflective/obsessive blog.

What will happen next? Who knows. Definately was a great talking point while it lasted.

Cold and tired and low. Uplifted throughout by some superb artists.

Cold and tired and low. Uplifted throughout by some superb artists.

The lady that painted this told me I was much prettier in real life. This is debatable.

The lady that painted this told me I was much prettier in real life. This is debatable.

1 of 2 Weekers Out of the estimated 57 nudes of me now out there in society this is above all my favourite.I’d never worked with the artist before. As you can tell from my face the pose beneath is hideously painful and the lady herself told me I looked very stressed. I actually rather unflatteringly fell over at half point because i had no feeling in my left leg. Hilarity I tell you. Sadly there’s more to come in a fortnight where i have to go through it all again. I find the best thing to do when pain overrides,is just to concentrate on some daydream and that can easily kill 15 minutes of stillness. The content to the daydreams can be pretty appalling.

1 of 2 Weekers

Out of the estimated 57 nudes of me now out there in society this is above all my favourite.I’d never worked with the artist before.

As you can tell from my face the pose beneath is hideously painful and the lady herself told me I looked very stressed. I actually rather unflatteringly fell over at half point because i had no feeling in my left leg. Hilarity I tell you.

Sadly there’s more to come in a fortnight where i have to go through it all again.

I find the best thing to do when pain overrides,is just to concentrate on some daydream and that can easily kill 15 minutes of stillness. The content to the daydreams can be pretty appalling.

Laxidaisical attitude to pose.

Laxidaisical attitude to pose.

Yet another. Field Music playing in my head whilst this was being painted.

Yet another. Field Music playing in my head whilst this was being painted.

Lyrical Reclining Pose. Easy stuff. Spent a lot of time thinking of a new thing and what joy 2012 is gonna bring. This made time fly by. I completely adore this painting. The lady that did it is possibly the best artist at the moment.

Lyrical Reclining Pose. Easy stuff. Spent a lot of time thinking of a new thing and what joy 2012 is gonna bring. This made time fly by. I completely adore this painting. The lady that did it is possibly the best artist at the moment.

Mendelssohn Portrait’s today. So I’m not looking my best after a weekend of All Tomorrow’s Party excess including vodka, cider, wine and ice cream (In this weather!) But mostly biscuits of the cheese variety.  Hence whole positive outlook on skin and flesh has taken a turn for the worst.  Not to worry though I just juiced my own body weight in broccoli and ginger. So nothing could have overjoyed me more than the suggestion that we do portraits today. My complicated visage challenged all of them. ‘Winsome’ was a phrase thrown about. ‘Staring eyes’ was another. As usual Ive picked my favourite first. Got an entire Greek banquet to get through for tonight production meal so god knows what toll this will take tomorrow morning.

Mendelssohn Portrait’s today. So I’m not looking my best after a weekend of All Tomorrow’s Party excess including vodka, cider, wine and ice cream (In this weather!) But mostly biscuits of the cheese variety.  Hence whole positive outlook on skin and flesh has taken a turn for the worst.  Not to worry though I just juiced my own body weight in broccoli and ginger. So nothing could have overjoyed me more than the suggestion that we do portraits today. My complicated visage challenged all of them. ‘Winsome’ was a phrase thrown about. ‘Staring eyes’ was another. As usual Ive picked my favourite first. Got an entire Greek banquet to get through for tonight production meal so god knows what toll this will take tomorrow morning.

It’s too late to post. Tonight’s tips bought me petrol and Merlot. One glass drunk after the leftover Chablis from Table 30. I’ve 3 months of my modelling career left. At least that’ll be when I don’t necessarily need the money anymore. The owner of the studio seems worried I’ll date a man who doesn’t approve. Question is; will I still do it?

It’s too late to post. Tonight’s tips bought me petrol and Merlot. One glass drunk after the leftover Chablis from Table 30. I’ve 3 months of my modelling career left. At least that’ll be when I don’t necessarily need the money anymore. The owner of the studio seems worried I’ll date a man who doesn’t approve. Question is; will I still do it?

We used to be Kings and Commanders now I’m barely just a General. This runs through my 3 hour brain during sittings. I like this. I don’t look like this though, do I?

We used to be Kings and Commanders now I’m barely just a General. This runs through my 3 hour brain during sittings. I like this. I don’t look like this though, do I?